Baby Fever

This week there have been a lot of reminders that I no longer have a baby in my house. Mary's first birthday was on Monday. Unbelievable that it has been a year. I started to reminisce over all that was happening this time last year. It does not feel like it has been a year, however, when I remember the time before Mary was here it seems like a lifetime ago. It is very hard for me to remember our family without her. Even though we didn't know it at the time something was missing. She was missing. And now that she is here we are more complete.

The night before her party was a rough one for her. She had been sleeping in our room for a week while we had company and she was ready for her crib back. So from 4am on she was laying with me. And I didn't mind (that time). I started remembering how little she was when we brought her home and how much she has grown, in all areas, since she joined us. Made me a little sad that my infant is gone.

I also have quite a few friends who are expecting or just had babies. I see their pictures and hear their stories, which never gets old. It reminds me how cute and exciting having a new baby is. How tiny they are, the time of getting to know each other, the instant love that you feel, the wonder of a human being coming into the world. I watched a baby being born this evening on TV. When I heard the little cry I missed that beautiful cry of and infant. Remembering back to the time in the hospital with Mary. The impatient time waiting for her to come. Meeting her. Feeding her. Singing to her for the first time. Watching Mike change her first diaper, and those are bad! Introducing her to people for the first time. Those were special times.

It was around this time with Scott that I started wanting another baby. I knew we were not finished and my very independent boy made me want another baby baby. As a mom you celebrate every milestone, EVERY one. So exciting when they learn to do something on their own. Let's face it sometimes everyone needing you for everything is hard. But at the same time you realize they don't need you for that one thing anymore. It is very bitter sweet.

Wednesday I had a 6 month check up on the abnormal cells that they found back in September. So my doctor went ahead and checked my birth control. He asked me if we were still sure we didn't want to try for any more kids. And even with all this reminiscing and missing the baby baby, the answer is still YES. Lol. I love my kids, more than I thought possible. But it's hard sometimes. And the infant stage is really hard. I am very happy with where we are at right now. I have a bossy, head strong, demanding little one year old princess who stills my heart more and more everyday. I also have a smart, handsome, head strong (notice a theme) 3 1/2 year old who will always be one of the all time loves of my life.

Here are the loves of my life!

Update

Ok, I do not know how it is possible for all you Mommies to stay up to date on this blogging. I am horrible. I barley have time to go to the bathroom during the day while watching these two little little blessings. A lot has happened since my last post so this is going to be a very general overview with pictures.

First of all today is Mary's first birthday. I can not believe that she is a year old already. It does not seem like she should be a toddler yet. Although she has been walking since she was 9 months old. But, when I think back to a year ago and being in the hospital and meeting her for the first time it seems like a lifetime ago. She is such a vital part of our family it is hard to remember our life without her. We had a great Princess party with her this past Saturday. It was a blast. She got a ton of wonderful gifts, played her heart out, grabbed her whole piece of cake with one fist and shoved it into her mouth. It was great. I will post pictures of that soon.

We had Mike's family stay with us for a week. They stayed with us last year for Spring Break with hope of being here when Mary arrived. They left on Saturday and she came Sunday morning at 3:16am. So, they came to visit us again this Spring Break to actually spend time with her and celebrate her first birthday. It was a great time.

Speaking of Spring Break, Spring has came to our house. We planted our flower bed in the front yesterday to celebrate the first day of Spring. We (Mike) also has tilled up the backyard to plant new grass seed and get our garden ready for planting. We are so excited and the kids really enjoy being outside. Both of them LOVE being outside. Mary will run to the front door and start beating on the screen to tell us she is ready to go out. It is so funny.

We had our first professional family pictures taken since Mary has joined our family:

Ok, this is a really long post and not even half of what has happened since the last post. I will try to post more often and will post pics of the family visit, birthday party and playing outside soon.